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Friday, 28 March 2008

  • What is this sleep thing anyway

    It may be that ive had a little too much caffeine or a too little sleep, but there have been a lot of interesting things going on as of late.  I've had the 'America is failing' conversation with several people that range from my mother to my roomates.  Ive come back from break into a warzone of lab reports and physics, and the whole switching schools thing is still up in the air with how its going to work. My friends have been going through a lot of crap.  Everything from threats of getting cut off, to having their mother, in all way but name, die of cancer,  to getting laughed at by a few of my friends for liking counting crows.  The world keeps on turning and people keep talking, and the only possible end in sight is if blizzard cancels Starcraft 2 (Korea has the bomb).  Wondering if i have enough in my bank account for my credit card bill cause i havn't been able to turn in a time card for two months.
        Yet with all this going on i can't help but feel happy that its spring.  We had our first thunder storm of the season last night and it was beautiful.  Lightning and thunder when i least expected it.  I was sitting under an overhang outside of my dorm pondering all the things above, staring right at a particularly interesting solid brick wall, when the sky lit up. One.. two... three... four... five... six. As weird as it was my entire train of thought stopped for this simple habit from childhood. Seven... Eight... nine... ten. Finally the roll of thunder.  Then something different happened.  I got some perspective on what was really going on.  I was drowning is a sea of insignificance.  The truth is i was letting some of my worse emotions get the better of me and i have been for a while, but the beauty of life is being able to change yourself for the better.  Your heart will lead you to what you want and your head will make sure your the kind of person you want to be.  Unless there is a problem here, the rest is just small stuff.  Life is an adventure, don't be afraid to put yourself into the thick of things.  Its a good place to be.  Anyhoot its time to either get some homework done, or go to a nine hole.  If i still had a programming course i would consider doing bolth.  Ah the euphoria of distention.


    take luck

Tuesday, 05 February 2008

  • Nostalgia

    Its kinda funny.  I got an email from xanga telling me that I haven't been on in a while, and my ece202 teacher is just boring enough to interest me in xanga.  I started off at Phils.  I figured that he would have the most recent post, but then I started to go through the old ones. Everyone from my girlfriend to people i haven't seen in years.  I reread the problems and concerns that we had, and the stupid things we used to say to get a laugh and how it hasn't changed a bit.  Through the last few days ive felt apprehensive and, dare i say it, angsty.  Ive felt that things are crashing, but looking through this site, something became perfectly clear to me.  The world is always crashing, and every crash is the big one nobody could come back from... till we got pulled back up.  It may have been us, our friends, family, or complete strangers that brought us back (most likely a combination), but we are still here taking the hits and soaring.  Life is a funny thing.  Completely unknown, yet its all we know.  Ive re-found my belief in people (which is hard enough to do with 4chan still in existance).  Anyhoot, class is ending, so we'll see who still reads these things.  Here is a poem ive always liked

    Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
    and remember what peace there may be in silence.
    As far as possible without surrender
    be on good terms with all persons.
    Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
    and listen to others,
    even the dull and the ignorant;
    they too have their story.

    Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
    they are vexations to the spirit.
    If you compare yourself with others,
    you may become vain and bitter;
    for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
    Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

    Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
    it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
    Exercise caution in your business affairs;
    for the world is full of trickery.
    But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
    many persons strive for high ideals;
    and everywhere life is full of heroism.

    Be yourself.
    Especially, do not feign affection.
    Neither be cynical about love;
    for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
    it is as perennial as the grass.

    Take kindly the counsel of the years,
    gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
    Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
    But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
    Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
    Beyond a wholesome discipline,
    be gentle with yourself.

    You are a child of the universe,
    no less than the trees and the stars;
    you have a right to be here.
    And whether or not it is clear to you,
    no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

    Therefore be at peace with God,
    whatever you conceive Him to be,
    and whatever your labors and aspirations,
    in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

    With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
    it is still a beautiful world.
    Be cheerful.
    Strive to be happy.

    Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.

    ~love isn't complicated,  we just make it that way.

Monday, 04 February 2008

Tuesday, 05 December 2006

  • quid

    Have you ever had one of those moments where you finally realize that you've lost sight of what actually matters, And the only things you can do is get depressed or laugh at your self. That happened to me last night. I was laughing really hard. It is the best medication.

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